secret window

Times are changing.

Posted by Kristi , Tuesday, February 22, 2011 1:28 AM

How do you do these things as an adult without sounding like a whiny, angst-filled pre-teen again?


I guess, I don't know.


I try to better myself. 
I'm working out.
I take classes at the gym.
I'm watching what I eat.


I try to be an outlet to people. I want to be the friend that people WANT to be around. I try to do nice things like buy food once in a while, drive so they don't have to, try to get them to reach out to me. I do that because I truly love my friends and the people in my life and I just to see them happy. 


But sometimes I feel like those feelings aren't mutual. Like I'm not a second thought. I feel like thats selfish of me and it probably is but...sigh. I don't know. 


I'm an adult and I still can't properly deal with my emotions.


I just say "I don't know" and sigh and hope it goes away...and it does usually.
For a while, at least.




Blah, I think all of this is just my period making me crazy.
Fucking hormones.


And maybe the fact that I worked almost 13 hours today and have been awake for 24 hours. o.O