mad world.
Posted by Kristi , Friday, December 3, 2010 2:00 PM
It makes me sad how the world can be so ugly.
A friend of Anna's got shot and killed in Saginaw because he was trying to prevent someone from robbing his friend's apartment. I just can't fathom how someone can disregard the value of life so much by murdering someone simply because they couldn't steal some things. It's disgusting and sad and makes me look forward more to moving away one day. Being here just makes me sad.
No one hangs out like they used to anyways. It's a chore to get most of my friends to get together as a group to hang out like when we were younger. It just seems like people are so jaded by growing up and being an adult that we can't take a step back and be silly again.
Anyways, Anna and I went Christmas shopping today. I love Anna. I feel so sad for her and I don't know how to express it properly. I'm such a klutz with emotions sometimes and it makes me feel like an awkward preteen again. I'm just glad I have a friend like her in my life. She always interests me and intrigues me and really helps me more than she knows. I just don't like knowing that she is going through a hard time and she really does an amazing job of looking strong. She is just a really amazing person. I wish she could see it more.
Someone is coming back into people's lives and I feel selfish because I'm not very...excited about it. This person makes me feel ugly. It's not fair of me to feel this way but honestly, they aren't a good person and I'm trying to hold onto that idea because I can't let myself try to make excuses for what they've done because of that fact that they are getting closer to people I love again. Sometimes you have to hold onto that anger because people don't change. I've learned that the hard way too many times.
Whew. What a jumbled clusterfuck of nonsense.
Thats okay though.
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